To start of, is not a good year cross over for me. First of all, I lost opportunity for the travel due to the world. Secondly, recent biggest boss of the company I am working in just announce due to the world what ever hardwork you done last year will be pay with stock only and your income is staying flat.
Well I am kind of expecting it but seriously when it was annouce it still hurt.... but I believe there is nothing that make the company I am working with to be exempt from the world. With the recent commitment I had (it is big) I wonder had I done the correct decision to bear the commitment. Anyway I had to bear it sooner or later.
Everything started with last years toward the end of years. My travel plan was constructed and has a bright chance to set my foot to the United State of America. Thats the hope given as I had looking forward to it since I join the company. Then come the news (kind of bad) that the last boss will be transfer out from PG and work at Costa Rica factory. The last boss was kind of the key for our team in PG to success and get the chance to work on US. As waiting toward the end of years, the world crumble and so is several of my colleagues travel plan while I am crossing finger to send me to US ASAP. The situation just get dark.....
Finally Jan 1st 2009, the staff of power being past from old boss to the new boss and my travel plan being finalized. What a bright sunshine day for me. Mood happy, work scheduled, contact being made, news being spread (to a little portion of friends), packing being done (for a little), US Visa being applied and NBA Golden State Warrior Oracle Stadium Map had almost being printed out, all of sudden an emergency meeting being called by the new boss. Raven circling the sky of our group, fog clouded our department, days turn dark, uneasy feeling filling up all the cubicles. In the meeting decision being made. All eligible travel engineer to US all being grounded......
All of this I wont say I am not prepared for it but I do have a certain percentage on my mind that I am prepared for the worst. However it is hurt and uneasy feeling keep rushing out despite of it. Usually within a group I can see the future of the group where it heading to and where am I heading towards, now my sight are clouded. Potetial of project being kill and being axed by the company is there and the chances are high. There is no way out since the world is seeing the same thing. Small potatoes like me is in the agony of uncertanties.......
缣的船只如今航行在茫茫大海，漆黑一片，没有多余的粮食，没有多余的修补器材，没有目标，没有宝藏地图可寻，没有多余的黄金来供给日常费用。有的只是一艘载满承诺的船，接近极限，少许破烂的船和一个曾是充裕的码头。
